Stuck somewhere in the middle…

I have been trying to figure out my direction for months, maybe even a year now! It’s challenging trying to point yourself in a direction between financially stable and doing something you love. Why must we compromise one for the other? I wish the direction was clearer. I wish I could allow myself to take the plunge and feel ok about it. The choice of diving head first into something you love and leaving the stability of what is available is a complicated decision. Fortunately, my hubby, friends and family are a constant, unconditional support. With that being said, sometimes it blurs the lines even more. If others have placed SO much faith in me and my abilities, why can’t I do the same? With the onset of infertility treatment and the cost that it requires, is it truly “smart” to jump into a “start-up”? This, of course, ads a recurring stress that looms over me on a daily basis. In the end, I am sure we will be fine. I know we would be ok, but certainly a lifestyle adjustment would be necessary! In the meantime, the uncertainty is just unbearable. I’m not a gamblr. I’m not that big of a risk taker, unless my odds are great, and is that really a “risk taker” anyway? I don’t have the urge to bungy jump.

How do I find the strength to move forward in whichever direction life takes me. Financially stable and unhappy OR financially barren {for now and me alone} but for something I enjoy? I’m in unfamiliar territory. What would you do?